i have a couple of very close friends which i have known for ten years or so..in fact three of them...we're sorta like the 4 muskateers eh? oh well, this post is all about them...mostly negative stuff but some positive stuff about em as well, i shan't mention names (well even if they read em, they will know i'm talking bout em) but i shall name them MR A, MR B and MR C...

so i'll talk about relations with all the 3 fine gentleman first..ok maybe not too fine...my friendship with Mr A is the closest because i've known him since secondary school and we've been in the same class for the whole tenure of the secondary education...from him i got to know Mr B and Mr C who were his childhood friends...it was simple days then we played and had fun, corruption of thoughts the last thing in our minds...i was supposedly the evil one..who led Mr A astray..heh..taught him bad stuff like gambling (though i knew my limits) and watch porn (ok yes i did watch em in the past..who doesn't?) but you know i didn't go to the extent of telling him to rob or anything, it was kinda like an age of growing up.....Mr B and C i got to know them closer after about 2 or 3 visits to our homeground as PLACE B...far from my home but its like a third home to me...we constantly played soccer together and went out play some arcade (though i sincerely hated arcade)

now after so many years, i think this friendship is starting to develop lots of cracks and alot of this is built on distrust and attitudes. Mr A who was once in debt for his gambling habits i guess is still disgruntled over the fact that Mr B did not lift a finger to help him while he was at his wits end with the debtors almost coming to his house to press for payment..and Mr B (over the phone) said he won't lend money to someone who gambles his money away..and had warned him prior to gamble lesser....(yeah right..now Mr B is also a gambler)...soccer gambling..sigh..its a wreck to human society..

By now, you woulda noticed i haven't mention much about Mr C. You see the problem with Mr C was that he was never too attached to us, Mr A and me..because he seemed to have his own group of cliques to be with and his whenever we played soccer at PLACE A, he didn't want to come down..claiming to have soccer training...ok well, i don't have much complains for Mr C because i don't think i know him well enough after 10 odd years..thats pretty sad...he seems to have a heck care cavalier attitude towards life, but i think sometimes he doesn't walk the talk.....but at least in terms of responsibility and principles, i rank this fella as the highest amongst us 4.

Now all bout Mr B now. Mr B has apparently gotten worse over these years. I still think back and laugh over the fact that he can say "friends are most important to me" and yet he could turn his back on Mr A at the most crucial moment. The thing is that, this fella is too easily swayed by material things...( i could say he would be a better man if he is led alight spiritually) he thinks friends are only worthy if they have some benefits for him...kinda like an atm of sorts? He doesn't care for his friends enough which can be seen when he doesn't take his friends advise for a damn at all...10 years++ friendship..all come to naught..its sad...
Whats worse is that he lies...constantly...non-stop...i'm really sickened by this..he told me once "he is sad nobody trusts me and that he will make an effort to change" ...yah it has been 2 months since he last said that now, no action at all..still lie like mad even to his friends and family. Recently he broke up with his girlfriend, and he had the cheek to put in his msn nick "Will buy a car to prove that she made a mistake for breaking up with me"...firstly, thats a stupid reason to buy a car...secondly, he cannot afford a car to say the least...thirdly, its good riddance that he leaves this girl because i don't think she is a long term consideration from how he describes her (easily jealous and paranoid..sheesh!)...lastly..its good riddance that this girl leaves him too, NEVER PUNCTUAL, ALWAYS LIE, VERY POOR PRINCIPLES..

MR A..he's changed alot since he got attached to his girlfriend, for both good and bad reasons. i can say he's more accomodating now...no not for the good reasons..for the bad..you know the sort of person which seems to care but is only actually showing half of it......he treats friends now like heck care attitude liao which sometimes pisses me off seriously. For example, he's always calling me to go to meet him at a later timing because Mr B's always late....sure..but in the first place, you ain't setting a good example, theres no trust at all...what kinda friendship is this? Yah sure, he is a very nice person and rarely loses his temper...and i enjoy talking to him...
ok heres one more bout him, i know it ain't nice to say it but i gotta since my family's pressuring me bout this issue for sometime....my family lent him some money the last time round..ain't too little 2000 bucks to lend for MY friend..and they ain't even close with him at all? ..other than returning 200 bucks to my family, i haven't heard anything from him about returning the money since...sometimes i tell him.."take your time, never mind..can return slowly"...but i am beginning to be bugged by the fact that he might rest on his laurels and return it in 10 years time....ok fine if its my money, but its my mother's money...she's complaining she got no money to buy stuff recently and i'm very guilty that i have to put her through this sometimes because of helping my friend. Ok if he is working hard to repay the debt than i got nothing to say, but he seems to be doing nothing to aid his cause...i have tried to indirectly tell him to go "work one year first then go study university or something" but he insists his family wants him to go study then work..(for heaven's sake..its your life!) ..the reason i asked being that he could repay my mother soon and my family could be more relaxed and not end up on a shoestring budget...but ah well, i have no right to disrupt his future, he's just a friend not my family...but i'm concerned about him..dunno if he feels the same..bah..just hear more grumbling and nagging for another few years ba..until he finishes his university (though i really dunno how he can pay his fees and repay his debts before his supposed PLANS of the age of 30)...sometimes it can come to this discouraging thought that i feel he will never pay us back the money....as much as i try to convince myself he is an honest and good lad...in fact, i was beginning to think at some point that he made up the story of being in debt (as i had never seen the debtors personally and never heard any such thing prior to that fateful day) so that he could get for himself some computer apparel (well I DID NOTICE he got himself some computer hardware components (which he claims to be from his friend?) ..maybe i'm too sensitive but i think thats how discouraging this friendship has become as it dragged on over the years..
he's also grown alot more boastful over these years..i think its because of his education....and his excellence in his course studies. As much as he says he accepts all kinds of ideas and stuff, i still see a majority of ideas and opinions by others rejected by him. He also tends to be very idealistic..no infact OVERLY idealistic when talking about certain ideas he have in mind...things that are simply not possible to be done and things that he haven't done up till now..i think i'm not the only person who will say this, but Mr B and C could also say these same things about him....You might think that i am looking down on him because i'm actually thinking "argh he is not as good la" ..but its not so, i have the utmost believe and faith in some of what he says and very often or not he delivers his words with action in precise fashion..and hence admiration. Maybe its just the way he talks, to me, it will put ALOT ALOT of people off, unfortunately if i was a management and supervisor i won't hire him to meet clients.

He is also too much of a thinker sometimes. He thinks too much ..and sometimes way too negative...and always attribute stuff like economy to work and thinking 10-15 years down the road...yah rite..you can't even fend for yourself now and you're thinking about family, bills, pay after graduation ? One particular thing i can't stand about him is this aspect..no doubt it is important to think of the long term, but its foolhardy to ignore the short term too...because u'll end up sitting down and worrying without action until the action loses its potential effectiveness....finally he's also growing more money oriented as years go by....sure society dictates one to have money but keep thinking about it for what?! You gonna destroy your life with apparent thoughts of taking shortcuts...and being overly ambitious..sigh~~

It'll be a matter of time before all 4 of us will head our seperate ways in life...we're kinda too different..in opinion and mindset...well for now i'm trying to get them out together as much as i can so that we could perhaps get together for a series of final hurrahs before the eventual shake of the farewell hand..

- Cheers for friendship -
- Jeers for changes -